I am so shy (unless I'm with my friends), so quiet (unless I'm with my friends), and love my alone time more than anything (unless I'm with my friends). These are some characteristics of mine that make me an introvert, I know there are other things and these aren't the only things that define an introvert, but right now I want to talk about risk taking, and my mental aversion to it that I'm working on changing.
I am not a risk taker. Unless it's past midnight, I'm near a roller coaster, or I am just on a huge sugar/adrenaline rush, I'm not someone who decides on instinct, it's a bit of a more thoughtful process. It's a good thing sometimes, but most of the time I wish I could take it and throw it away for a minute because I want to be able to just go with my gut and take a RISK for god's sake. But no. The little door out of my tiny comfort zone has three dangerous words printed on it that get me every time: Are you sure? I'm not usually sure, and so I step back and by the time I evaluate the situation, I've decided, no, it's too risky, what if don't make it or I embarrass myself or they hate me?!?! No. I won't. I can't. And see there, the I can't. Once I end up there there is no going back.
"I can't" is dangerous. I know technically I could, but wouldn't it just be easier and less painful not to? And I guess, I guess "no" is a safe and easy way out, but it can't always be no. Sometimes it has to be yes, sometimes the risks are worth the taking, and you will gain something from every yes you give. Now lets just clear up that when I say "yes" I mean yes to things that could better your life, things that could take you places. Not yes to things that are way out of your comfort zone or drugs or anything completely irresponsible. Who do you think I am?
Anyway, where, when, why, and to whom you say yes is up to you and choose these moments carefully because high school determines whether you're going to make it or you're not. And it is SO important to me that I make it and that everyone around me can and that is why I write this. I write to say that comfort zones are created by you. So the only person who can push those walls down and renovate your box a little is you.
I'm practicing doing this myself. I'm making new friends at a new school, I'm trying new things, and I'm auditioning for something, and I'm comfortable with the fact that I might not make it. I think that doing all this is really going to prepare me for bigger risks in the future, and knowing how to go at them with confidence and that little dash of spunk and spirit I know lies within me somewhere. I encourage everybody to do the same.
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